
Kindle Edition- 361 Pages
Published May 26, 2011
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Abby and America have been best friends since childhood and with the many obstacles life has brought including an alcoholic mother, a gambling father and a dangerous childhood, college is Abby's first independent choice. The girls originally leave so Abby can get away from her low life parents and change her surroundings and connections to make the best out of a new start. Abby has sworn off anything that could lead to a scandalous life, so she lays low and enjoys college for it is......well until she meets Travis and her plan gets blown to bits.
One night while accompanying America and her boyfriend Shepley, Abby go's to see Shep's cousin and roommate Travis, a local hero and underground fighting champion {aka...the elusive sexy man-whore of Eastern U} fight live in the ring. Standing out in her little pink cardigan sweater, Travis is taken by the pretty, fresh faced girl who looks nothing like the average bimbos who crawl all over him 24/7 and is immediately drawn to her sparkle. Travis is determined to know her and Abby at first does not fall for his sexy charms and good looks or even the cute name he calls her {Pigeon} no matter the try, he cant change her mind. While a tad awkward due to the physical chemistry between them, Abby and Travis strike up a very snarky and playful friendship that begins having a dramatic effect on Travis, and Travis being Travis, the proud cant share my feelings type, never tells Abby how he truly feels and winds up acting out in some not so gentlemanly ways.
Abby and America wind up staying at the guys apartment for awhile and due to a lost bet Abby winds up moving in with Travis for a month. While Abby tries to date Parker, Travis begins to stray from the one night stands and begins fighting for the one thing he really wants. With all the shared nights of sleeping in the same room, growing close and the escalating sexual tension, Travis and Abby fall in love. Things aren't perfect though, both are immature and stubborn and the pieces of their past come to haunt both of them, making the complicated relationship if you can imagine, even more complicated.
I read Beautiful Disaster due to the controversy it sparked and I cant say enough how much I liked this book, while going into it I was expecting to read about this awful horrid psycho named Travis, but what I realized by the end was that I really liked McGuire's style of writing and grew to care about bad-boy Travis. Was Travis a prince charming? Absolutely not...Travis was an emotional wreck and a product of his childhood, the boy lost his mother, was abused and had a ton of self esteem issues. He protected himself by placing a wall around his heart, most of Travis's behavior {the fighting, sleeping around} were defense mechanisms, he used people before they could use him, pretty much a classic case of an abandoned or neglected child. This complaint about Travis being a domestic abuser...I just don't see it. What I saw was a macho tough guy who's creator indulged him in a fantasy world of being too hot, too tattooed and able to make girls go stupid in their pants. An in depth analysis would say McGuire created him to be the unattainable bad boy who uses his penis like a Macy's Thanksgiving Day Sale- only to be tamed by the love of his life, showing us that even the most whorish of men can settle down.
Abby takes Travis by surprise, the real emotional connection brought true intimacy that in itself was too overwhelming for him. It scared him, unsettled him, made him a codependent nightmare that sometimes turned to jealousy, fits of violence against guys who would dare take a crack at Abby's boobs and trashing his apartment. This doesn't scream danger to me, it screams grow the hell up. Fortunately that's exactly what all these issues amount to, stepping stones in Travis's maturity and the big boy pants he would eventually put on. Granted his character was prone to douche-baggery but thank goodness the Travis in the end was not the Travis we met in the beginning. Before we put all the blame on Travis, let me tell you, Abby was no saint in this book, yes she was virgin and tried to maintain a somewhat wholesome lifestyle, but like Travis, she too came from a very rough childhood and escaped a life of crime, gambling and neglectful/abusive parents. It made sense that the first real intimate relationship she would have was with a potentially dangerous guy. Intimacy and emotional connection was overwhelming for her too and she used that against Travis to manipulate him, stringing him along throughout most of the book.
While Abby's emotional level was much more stable, in the end they both were guilty of hurting and obsessing over each other. Neither one knew how to handle the relationship, compounded by the emotional scars of their pasts, its easy to see why things were so intense. I never thought the author had any intentions of making this an evil or murderous love story, or making Travis a domestic abuse hero. Travis was guilty of jealousy, temper tantrums, telling Abby she couldn't wear skimpy clothes to his underground fights and being an emotional tool. However Travis never hit Abby, he never threatened her or even contemplated violence against her, he never isolated her or tried to cut her off from her friends, he never called her names, nor did he ever make Abby feel scared or trapped. Im not condoning or justifying Travis's behavior but I think after reading the book and knowing his love for Abby, I was left with an ending that painted a happy future I can hope the characters receive.
Together in a world of no sense, they made sense and taking her characters through that dark fiery hallway, McGuire showed us how brokenness can heal and how even the disregarded can be redeemed. I wanted to see these broken characters find happiness and romance and find love that stands the test of time. Beautiful Disaster is fiction, so enjoy it for what it is, a guilty pleasure liable to make you blush. Despite a few minor typos, its sure to be an Indie stand out among readers.
Defiantly gritty, defiantly unconventional but nonetheless, still a love story.
Rating
Beautiful Disaster is recommend to readers 18+{think college crowd and adults}and contains violence {boxing and male on male violence} gambling, drinking, smoking, strong and crass language, illegal activites and graphic sexuality.
5/5- Contemporary Romance